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Shamyra
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A former student for Media Arts and Animation...Now a college dropout trying to get her health and life back together.

Age: 22

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Journal Entry: Mon Oct 27, 2014, 11:44 PM
I've lost the will to be genuinely happy with myself....no this is not a "I'm going to commit some ungodly act like suicide or anything else..." No. I just can't find myself to be happy with me....

My friends make me feel a bit better...but that's just scratching the surface. My rl friends have lives and everyone knows I hate bothering people.

Every time I art, a piece of happiness goes away and it's now to the point where I stress myself out...even with stuff I love to doodle...

Rl ain't doing me wonders either with the crapton of bills and stupid student loan people breathing down my neck...also I've been getting in a depressive mood much more ofren than not and it's driving me up a wall. I refuse to chat with friends, fearing I might bring them down in the process. I've also been sleeping less...insomnia if you will. It's bad. I don't know how to have fun anymore...

I really didn't want to rant and be a bother to anyone...but this "happy mask" is doing nothing but suffocating me. I know some of you out there says someone's worst off than me...and I say...I ain't them. Idk what they are going through and frankly I'm pretty sure it ain't none of my business. I wish them good luck in whatever hell they're in, but I am me.

Sorry for the rant. I stop now...

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Journal Skin by: HeatherSchoff
  • Mood: Defeated
  • Listening to: Anything at this point
  • Watching: my life waste away
  • Drinking: Water water and more water

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I wish I could change my birth year to the correct year on here... 

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4 deviants said //whines
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2 deviants said When I joined, I misclicked
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2 deviants said DA! Can you guys at least do it yourselves? I know y'all have the power to do so.
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1 deviant said But I was born in 1992 ;;
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No deviants said Cause I was rushing through after losing the passwords/emails on 2 other accounts
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No deviants said So now it says I was born in 1987...

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Enaxn Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the watch! <333
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Electrical-Socket Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for watching me! :D
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TheWolvenAngel Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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I hope you like it, and that you have a great time this month!! :iconbigheartplz:
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Jack-Norisk Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for the watch
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